You make me lurch

dizzy roomLurch

You make me weak at the knees and it makes me lurch

When I see you on screen I can’t take my eyes off you

I don’t know your lines and I don’t see what you do

If I didn’t sit down I could lurch and embarrass myself

I pay for a movie ticket just to see you

I can’t be with you for real so I feed my hunger this way

Even if I think about you I feel dizzy

I want to close my eyes and hear your voice

But the power of you makes me want to look

You have no idea what you’re doing to me

All you need to stand there and do nothing

You hypnotise me with your presence

It doesn’t matter if it’s on-screen or off

You still occupy my mind and it destroys my life

I try to think about something else but it won’t work

No matter what you do nothing will change

You make me lurch and I can’t stop it



Alone in my solitary

man looking over citySolitary, the power for an introvert. People think when you’re alone, it means you’re lonely. Introverts aren’t more lonely than extroverts. You can have people around you but still feel lonely. Loneliness has nothing to do with introversion. Being around people is stressful. I rather be alone than trying to impress other people. I like being around people but there are a time and place for everything. I live in a city where solitarily is easy to find. You don’t even need a car to get there. The best place is in the woods and the other is a beach in early spring or early autumn. In a solitary place, you can think without distractions by other people or sounds. When you’re alone you can do anything without having to ask for permission. That’s the reason why I like living alone. I’ve had a few room mates when I’ve studied and it was hell. They were nice and all that but living with someone else is not my cup of tea.

For me, it’s very important to be independent. If I didn’t live alone I would have to consider the other person’s needs. More importantly, share the remote control. If I had a room mate they would bring their friends or boyfriends over and I would never be left in peace. Now I can walk around naked if I wanted to. Some people want a room mate so they wouldn’t be lonely and they could share the expenses. But I rather pay more than share a flat with someone else.

They say being alone is not good for your health. But for me it’s the other way around. I get stressed if I’m not alone. I don’t like being in a crowed place. Noisy people are the worst. Why some people have the urge to talk in a loud voice is something I’ve never understood. Have they lost their ability to talk at a lower volume? I’m not surprised the kind of music people listen to so there’s no wonder they can’t even hear their own voices anymore. Some love their voice so much they can’t stop talking. The best time is when there’s no noise at all. That’s better than meditating.

There are people who are afraid they’ll never find anyone so they even use dating services to find their Mr/Mrs Right. What’s so wrong being alone anyway. Some people are meant to be alone. If you feel lonely, get a pet. You don’t need to cook their meals, wash their clothes or any other things you need to do for another person. I like being alone in my solitary. Sometimes it would be nice to have someone but that thought is short-lived. Looking at other people’s lives, my options are so much better.