I’ve always been a creative person and to create is to live. There are different ways to be creative and it doesn’t have to be drawing. That has never been my favourite thing and I guess no one has really known me as someone who can draw very well. It’s kind of funny because both my parents could do it much better than I have. My creative talent is somewhere else.
Sometimes I doubt my abilities. I think maybe it’s only me who think I’m good at creating things. It doesn’t really matter what others think though. I’m still going to create because that keeps me focused and it helps me get through life. Creativity is like breathing and you can’t stop doing that. It’s also a good exercise for the brain.
Being creative can also be annoying. Especially when you post things online. You do a lot of work and still, no one appreciates your efforts. This happens a lot when I post my fan fictions online. I don’t do that for my own amusement. If I did, I would keep them to myself. I can understand if people don’t want to read them because it’s not about their favourite subjects. But those who does read fan fiction in general, you would think they at least would leave a comment or at least a like. I wish people would see my stories the way I do. I’m really proud of my work and it’s a shame I don’t get the same reaction some writers do. You never really know what people read online so those statistics doesn’t prove anything. Every story can’t be as popular as the others and I can live with that. The lack of reactions just irritates me sometimes and it takes out all the creativity in me.
Everyone should be allowed to do things they find most comfortable with. Those who criticise creative people are probably only jealous because they’re not. You can still create even if it’s just a hobby. Creations don’t have to be artistic. Creating can be cooking, baking or just something to do. If people knew how to use their creativity better, they wouldn’t need a smartphone to keep them entertained. There’s no such thing as bored. If you know how to create then you should have no problem to make up something to do. Technology has made people lazy and there’s no creativity in that. To create is to live and you don’t need gadgets for that. Unless you’re the one making creative apps and such. That’s another story altogether.
I’m not a book reader even though I’m an introvert. I wouldn’t want to write one either. But what I love writing about is fiction in an alternative universe. In other words RPF (real person fiction) I wrote a post about that before but this is for those who just joined in (sounds like a radio program there 😀 ) I’ve written a few about characters from movies. Well Lord of the rings and The Hobbit. I also have a blog about those so you can try to find them if you like. I prefer writing about real people. Actually it’s not about them, it’s just the names that are real and how they look like.
When I come up with a story, I think about it in my head. I usually write as I go along. Real author’s probably write their ideas down and changes their stories several times. I mainly write for pure entertainment. People seem to like to read them so it’s also for them. But it’s usually for my own pleasure. When I get an idea, I really write them and not just think about it. If I’m really pleased about it, I post it online. I have stories I haven’t even finished but I use some of the ideas I had there. Since I write as I go along, I can rearrange the story lines. For example at the moment I’m writing a story where I suddenly got an idea that I didn’t even consider when I started. The story is going to a total different direction. It can change rapidly. When inspiration struck, I can’t stop writing. Sometimes I even stay up all night because the ideas keep flooding in. I always read them through several times because there is always some spelling errors or I want to write them in a different way. When I’m satisfied, I post them online. I don’t get the reaction from readers the way I want to and sometimes it bugs me but I still post them despite that. I assume some don’t have that analysing look on things and I’m OK with that. Maybe they don’t understand what I’m trying to say. It can be anything but I don’t dwell on the matter for very long.
So where do I get inspiration from? Sorry I can’t tell you because then I have to kill you. Joking a side. I get ideas from everyday life, movies, music, actors but mostly about men I like at the time. I written about athletes but mostly actors since I have a thing for them. My first ever fan fiction was about an actor but I only wrote it for myself. I’ve read it later and I must say, I really have improved since then. That’s one of the reasons why I write in English. It sounds so much better and I learn the language at the same time. It also stimulates my brain cells and improves my imagination. I like making up plots and creating storylines. I’m not really good at describing in detail and I rather concentrate on the characters feelings. Maybe it’s not the best way to let a reader imagine how the atmosphere is like or what the characters are wearing but that’s why I’m not a book author. I write what I want to read because there’s so many different tastes. Some like reading details and someone prefer the story line. I can’t really know unless someone tells me. I want to know what the characters are doing and saying, not what they wear or the what the interior looks like. It might work in books but in fan fiction it should be faster. That’s the way I write and I like it. Great if someone thinks the same.
I also read other people’s fan fiction but most of them are about things I don’t really care about. I began to write my own because I didn’t find things I wanted to read. But reading others makes you find English words you don’t know what they mean. Sometimes it’s difficult to describe something in English. Sounds are difficult to put into words. I don’t even know them in my own language. I use Google a lot because of this. I’m really interested in human behaviour. Why do certain people act the way they do? Is there something in their childhood that made them they way they are? Why are these people so damaged, they act like they own the place? Questions like that are very helpful in writing and why not in real life. There are great fan fiction writers out there. I wish my English would improve so much I could use those words for my own advantages. Writing in any way is a great hobby so no need to rearrange things there.
Are you one of those who has a muse but they don’t know it? If it’s a no then I must be one of the few ones who has. I don’t know if I can call it a muse though. It’s more of an inspiration. I write a lot of fan fiction. Mostly real person fiction in an alternative universe. Some people think that’s creepy. Writing about a real person who exists. But I don’t care. People who write slash are weird but I don’t complain about it in public. I don’t actually write about that person. The only thing that’s real it’s their appearance. It’s not like the person I write about will ever even find it. Why would they care anyway? Besides I only write for fun and it shouldn’t hurt anybody.
I wrote about my love of writing fan fiction before but I’ve never written about who I find my inspiration from. Or muse if you like. When I wrote Formula One fiction it was Mark Webber. Then I wrote one with tennis and my muse were Novak Djokovic. That I wrote for myself only.
When I “discovered” Lee Pace there has been no turn back. I don’t even realise how many fics I’ve written about where he’s included. Even if my stories have other actors (Benedict Cumberbatch or Richard Armitage) he’s always the inspiration or muse. If it’s from the characters he played or the man himself. I don’t know if it’s a good or a bad thing. Actors has always been a weakness of mine. The first fic I ever wrote was about an actor. There’s just something about Lee that keeps me coming back. Even the next fiction I’m planning at the moment includes him. If I don’t write them, I read. I think the reason why I started to write my own was because I didn’t find stories I was looking for. I love writing about him so why should I stop?
Recently I’ve read fictions about Tom Hiddleston. I haven’t watched him in anything except ‘The Night Manager’ and haven’t really cared for him either. Until I read those fics. Never underestimate the power of fan fiction. It has inspired me to include him in my stories but since I don’t know much about him, it’s more difficult. He doesn’t give the same inspiration Lee does but that shouldn’t stop anything. There’s so many great one’s out there so a muse can also be other fictions. Mine will never be as good though.
I don’t know if I would even want Lee to know what I write about him. It’s not that it’s embarrassing, it’s more about do I want my muse to know what kind of mind I have. It would probably freak him out or something. Still, a muse is a muse and there’s nothing one can do.