A fresh start

2014, here I come. I’m such a lazy writer. But I have a good reason. My motivation has been low. It has nothing to do with not having a job. It has never been something I stress about. And has nothing to do with my mother passing away on December 15, 2013. She had cancer. She had been sick about a year. There was nothing the doctor could do. That’s just life. Some have the luck of surviving but she wasn’t one of them. Unfortunately. After having a cry 3-4 days in a row, I have started to feel better. It’s never nice when someone close to you dies. You just have to continue. There are times when those memories comes back to your mind. Maybe you cry and wish that person was still around. You never get over it, you just move on.

Anyway. I have always had motivation problems. Maybe because I like so many things. I need someone who lifts up my spirit. Encouragement is the word. I get bored easily. Sometimes I feel like a failure. Lot of people in my age (30+) already have careers but I have nothing. I don’t compare myself with others though. They also have families but that’s not what I want from life. Maybe I’m like Peter Pan, never want to grow up. I just have to be more brave. I’m not very sociable. Never had lot of friends but I don’t need much either. It might sound really sad that I have no one (except my dad) but that’s something I’m not depressed about. What’s more depressing, is that I can do lots of different things and studied but still can’t find a job. That’s my goal for the year. I want to earn my own money so that I can pay the mortgage (the flat I live in, was owned by my mother) and that I can buy a new flat somewhere else. I’ve told too much already 😉

Until next time. Might be tomorrow since I’m taking part of this Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog

5 things I can’t live without


It’s always been part of my life. Without music life would be boring. I’m more of a listener then a player. When I was 6 years old I took electric organ lessons. Or it was a lesson. I didn’t like it that much. My parents even bought me a electric organ for Christmas. I was too lazy to practise I guess. When I got older, I’ve learned to play it. Only with one hand though. I’ve learned some notes on my own. Easy ones. In school I played the recorder. The same with that, too lazy to practise. I only took it up again when I got older. Like I said, I’m more of a listener. I listen to all kinds of music. Except heavy metal or jazz. I don’t like noisy music. Like techno music. I’m mostly into pop and rock music. My favourite bands are Duran Duran and Bon Jovi. My favorite artists are Madonna and Michael Jackson (rest his soul) I could write a whole blog about bands and artists I like. For me music is a way of escaping from reality.

My bike

I don’t have a drivers license or do I like using public transport either. I have a city bike. With a bike you can go almost anywhere. It’s only in the winter I don’t use it. Sometimes I do short bike rides. Luckily I live in a city where nature is near by. I wish people with cars would have more respect for cyclists. Unfortunately there are also cyclists that have no respect for other traffic. They drive like headless hen. So no wonder accidents happen. I always drive carefully.


I could never live in a big city. Too much traffic and too many people. For Finns nature has always been a big part. Finland is one of the few places in the world where forests and fresh air still exist. It’s peaceful to walk around in the forest, listen to birds sing, hearing the wind. Takes out all the stress. Unfortunately not everyone have respect for nature. They leave their trash behind them. Scream on the top of their lungs and who knows what. Nature should not be taken for granted. Nothing is more important than clean surroundings and fresh air.


It might be bad for your health but sometimes you need something sweet. My favourite is chocolate and salmiakki. Not together though. Finnish chocolate is the best. I eat chocolate as it is or put it on ice cream. The only candy/sweet I don’t like is mint and marmalade.


Laughter is the best remedy, they say. And it’s all true. When I feel down I watch comedy but also when I’m happy. I especially love British humour. The Fast show, A bit of Fry and Laurie, Father Ted, Keeping up appearance and Allo Allo. Just to name a few. I also like American humour. Like Friends, Frasier and The big bang theory. My all time favourite comedian is Jim Carrey. Such a talented actor. He can do serious characters as well. I love films with humour in it. I can laugh at almost anything. It’s not about what is said, it’s how it’s said.

How time flies

It almost feels like yesterday, in Australia 2002. It was when Mark Webber entered Formula1, driving in a Minardi. His first race and 5th place. Impressive. OK, drivers retiring in front but still. Not bad for a rookie.

In 2003, he joined Jaguar. It wasn’t the best car but stillmanaged to drive well. What made me like him even more. And support him as a driver. Was a live chat on his official website where you could ask him questions. And he answered one of mine. The question was, does he ever lose his temper. He even wrote a smilie in the answer. He was so nice and after that I was hooked. On the same week there was another chat. This time on the ITV-F1 website, where my question was asked aswell. I will never meet him but at least I have something.

Then in 2004 Jaguar Racing gave fans a chance to ask him a question and he answered 3 of mine (I sent 5) 3 times is not bad. Some people never get the chance to ask their driver anything.

The Williams years wasn’t great at all. Car was unreliable. But he tried his best. For some people that wasn’t enough. There were people that thought maybe he wasn’t that good after all and then stopped being fans. Some fans they were. You can’t expect wins if the car is not there. I heard and read so much BS about him, I stopped caring. They’ll be sorry now.

In 2007 when he joined Red Bull Racing, things were looking much better. Still no wins but patience is a virtue. But then Sebastian Vettel arrived to the team and suddenly he was the number one driver. Why some drivers get that status is beyond me. It’s like the 2nd driver is just there to make up the numbers. Whatever people think about Red Bulls driver policies, the fact is, they have given Mark the opportunity to fight for wins. Even if sometimes it has seemed, they are reluctant to do so. A real shame he haven’t become champion, which he really deserve. It doesn’t mean he’s less of a driver. It just wasn’t meant to be. Winning a championship is overrated anyway.

Now when he decided to leave Formula 1, I’m not that sad. It’s time to move on. I would be more sad if he quit motor sport altogether. There’s been ups and down but I’ve never given up on him. Too bad he’s never got the respect he really deserves. What I’m gonna miss the most is he’s straight to the point attitude and his way with words. Some people don’t like outspoken drivers. They only want to hear what they want to hear. Whatever he said, they saw it as whining. You don’t have to agree but have at least some respect. He’s the reason I kept watching and following the sport. Otherwise I wouldn’t have done it as much.

Maybe when the season is over, sadness will come over me. At least he doesn’t have to listen to team orders to help Vettel any more.

Formula 1 won’t be the same without him.