Captivating images

©Mia Salminen

I’m amazed how many great photographers there are in the world. All those captivating images make me feel a little jealous. It’s quite difficult for me to judge my own images. It feels like I’m not as good as I think I am. At least when it comes to making money off it. I thought I would have become a pro but then I realised I didn’t like taking photos that much. I still take them but not as much as before. At least not with my camera. If I took photos for a living, it would take all the fun out of it. It’s much more fun now that I don’t necessarily need to get better. There’s less pressure because I can photograph when I feel like it. A lot of people make it for a living so the competition is hard. Having photography as a hobby is much better because then you don’t need to impress anyone. It feels more relaxing to post them online too.

It’s looking more likely that I would start my own business. I’m studying about that at the moment. I thought about adding photography to my services. But it can cause problems since I don’t have driver’s license and I also don’t photograph portraits. But then again, you don’t really need those things to take photos. There’s a lot of different things to photograph. I was thinking more about taking event photos or photos of people’s workplaces. I don’t know if people want that service from me since my business would be about web design. But at least photography would make me stand out. I don’t even know why I even want to be in the web design business. It’s the same like with photography, the competition. But what else could I do? It’s rather that or a slave of well-fare.

Whatever I do, photography will always be part of me. You learn to look at the world in a different way. I have moments when I see something outside but I don’t have a camera with me. I don’t have a mobile with a good one and the same with my tablet. It’s a bummer but I don’t cry about it. Some situation you just can’t capture. You almost need to take your camera everywhere you go. All these smartphone cameras are only for online photos. I prefer a real camera anyway. I only have Instagram because of the tablet. It takes forever to post anything from it so I don’t do it very often. I can’t stand touch screens. I rather post photos from the computer. It’s easier and a little less irritating.

If any of you would like to see my photos (or maybe you already have) you can see them in the links.


Some of them can be the same but you get a general idea. I’ve had a comment from someone once that they could take photos like mine. Sure, go ahead. It’s so easy, some think. Besides, it’s the thought that counts. So what if anyone could have taken it. Photos don’t need to look perfect. There’s always someone who finds your photos captivating. They don’t even need to be focused. You only need to use your imagination and find the beauty in it. If people only see photos as one than they don’t get the idea of photography at all.


Fact worse than fiction

any questionsIf things would be so much easier, I could actually get something done. But the fact is worse than fiction. It doesn’t matter what you do. Things are always made complicated. Then again if it was easy everybody could do it.

I’m on a course about entrepreneurship. It mostly happens online. There already been two meetings with the group of 25. There will be 3 more. It’s always nice to meet new people but most of the time it’s not my cup of tea. Everyone else seems to be bonding so easily. It feels like my introductions put people off. I absolutely hate speaking in front of strangers. I always forget to say things I’ve thought about it. After my introduction, no one asks me anything. Maybe it’s just a Finnish thing. Maybe people just don’t think I’m interested enough. I don’t look for friendship but I wish there would be some connection where I feel comfortable. I’m like a fish out of the water. I’m not sure if I really belong to this course. Especially when networking is so important if you want to have your own business.

Speaking of that. In entrepreneurship there’s so much you have to do. About taxes and all that. If you’re unemployed and start your own, you’re in the hands of the job centre. They’re the ones who decide if you’re a part-time or full-time entrepreneur. It would be much easier if you weren’t signed to their books. But if you’re not, you won’t get unemployment benefits. You don’t get success overnights so you have to live on welfare for a while. If things were fiction, you could just start your business and clients will roll in. But the fact is, it’s not that simple. You have to work on it so maybe working for someone else would be better. But what can you do when you can’t find anything. It’s either entrepreneurship or falling down the society crack.

You probably don’t understand what I write but I just write what I think. It doesn’t have to make sense. If it does, then it’s alright. Sometimes I doubt my writing is confusing and the subject change too quickly in one post. But that’s how my mind works. Blogging won’t save my life but that’s not the point. It’s a hobby and that fact will always be better than fiction.