In the mind of an introvert

I don’t know why some are introverts and some are extroverts. Is it inherited or is it something that happens during a person’s life?

I’ve never been that talkative. I don’t know if it’s always been like that. At home I always felt most comfortable. But when it came to people outside the home, I was different. I don’t know how I even got friends in school when I was younger. Of course it helped because those kids went to the same preschool as I did so I already knew some of them. I’ve always been reserved. My father said once that my mother were too protective but it’s has nothing to with that. I think it was because I lost my sister at a very young age. I’ve always thought that if she had been alive, maybe I would have been braver and more extrovert. Not only because of that but also what happened later in my life.

Maybe I’ve written this before but when I had to repeat 4th grade, there were a few girls that whispered about me behind my back. It actually started in 5th grade. E.g. freezing me out of the group. That year I probably became even more reserved. I didn’t like school at all after that. The funny thing is, one of those girls were my friend the first year I came there. We talked things behind that other girl’s back. Come to think of it, those two were still friends but they had some kind of row. But when they became friends again, I became 2nd. What I learned that day (sounds like one part from the first Hobbit movie :D) I recognise who’s fake or not. I don’t trust people the way I used to. I was glad I didn’t have anything to do with them again. If I was the person I am today, I would have handle it in another way.

Being an introvert can have it’s problems. Like with jobs. People think I have some kind of handicap. That I can’t do a job. I might be shy and quiet from time to time but I can do a job like anybody. I’m just picky. I won’t take any job. I have studied things but I’m looking at something specific to do. At least something I’ve studied. But getting any job is difficult. At least here it is. Especially since I’m 30 something and I don’t want to study something new again. I need money like anybody. Living on well-fare is not something I want to do the rest of my life.
I worked in one of my local newspaper as a photographer for 2 weeks. The verdict was that I wasn’t social enough. You won’t get very social in 2 weeks. But in a way they were right. Being a photographer is being social. I think I’ve tried to be social but that didn’t seem to be enough. I think that was just an excuse. They probably already had decided not to keep me. I was just a substitute until the students came. It wasn’t a job with real pay anyway but at least that was some job experience.

If you want social from me, you just have to give me a chance. The same with friendships, you shouldn’t give up on me if I don’t start talking straight away. It just takes a little time before I open up to you. It’s a shame that people don’t have time to wait in today’s society. But it’s their loss.

Advertisements

Author: Mia

My primary blog 'In my world' is about things I like. Not so much personal stuff. I'm a private person and I want to keep it that way. Also visit my 'MiaPhotolio', 'My Web Design Haven" and 'Fan Fiction Haven'

4 thoughts on “In the mind of an introvert”

  1. Thanks for adding yourself to the blogger201 map. That is how I got here. If you are in Finland are you writing in English as a second language? If so this is amazing. It is an interesting question whether our characteristics are within us or a result of circumstances. The nature versus nurture debate. The best description I heard, which you may like as a photographer, is that we are born like a piece of film that has a picture exposed on it, depending on how we are treated as we grow up depends how well the picture develops from that film. It may be bold and crisp and clear, or pale and hard to see with damage scratches or scars. The other thing to hold on to is being an extrovert is not better than being an introvert, it’s just different. Also some people who are introverts act at being extroverts and it is hard work. You may find this link interesting http://www.support4change.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=90&Itemid=172

    Like

    1. No actually English is my 3rd language. 2 others are Finnish and Swedish (Finland is a bilingual country) I’ve had a lot of practise since 4th or was it 5th grade, where English is teached in school.It has also helped to listen to music and watching movies or tv. I’ve also read English magazines and books.
      Thanks for the link, will check it out and thanks for your comment

      Like

I know you're there. Why do you linger in the shadows?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s