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In this fast-paced world, everyone seems to be in a hurry. Everything needs to be ready this minute and not an hour later. People don’t have any time to incubate. The best things are made slowly. If you want something decent done, there shouldn’t be a rush.
As an introvert, I hate rushing things. I like to do things in my own time without having other people bothering me all the time. You can’t force me to do things because then I won’t do them at all. No one should be that much in a hurry. I like to ponder things in my own head before saying it out loud. The only time when I hate slow things is internet and when I have to wait for a person. Even if I have done something in my own time, I still get them done. There are days when I want to do things quickly but only because I got something far more interesting things to do. Or if it’s about blogging and I don’t really know what to write but still want to write something. I call that rushing it slowly.
I’ve always known entrepreneurship wasn’t for my kind of person. But yet I decided to study it. I think I must be provoking myself into believing I can do it. I just don’t have that business instinct. I can’t even keep my own financial things in check. I don’t even know how to explain that and honestly, I don’t even bother finding out. Anyway, this whole having your own business feels so complicated. It’s like Hebrew to me. Especially this business plan you need to write. So many questions to answer. Why can’t it be simple? I make websites, maybe some graphic design and photography. Bam and ready, get me work. But no, you need something new to offer and target groups, who you sell to. You can’t just say whoever pays me well. I feel like I have nothing to offer. Let’s face it, the principle in web design is the same. You can’t invent something that’s already there. Or maybe I missed something. All this studying is so boring when you don’t get it. Actually, all this talk about it bores me. Maybe I should get a job from someone else but that’s not gonna happen either.
I keep searching for other web designers and it makes me feel blue. A lot of them offer the same things but they’re much more experienced than I am. Some of them make sites cheap which makes me wonder, how do they live? The biggest problems are these do-it-yourself where any amateur can make a website. How can you compete with that? Soon no one needs a pro to do them. Even those who are not web designers make sites for clients. But it’s not about making a site and that’s it. You also need marketing skills which are my weakness. If all that could be done online for free, then things would be much easier. But to get clients to your business, you have to get out of your comfort zone. Sorry, but I can’t do it. I can go to place but then I just want to leave. It feels so awkward to be around strangers. That’s the curse of a shy introvert like myself. Networking is something I wish I could ignore altogether. But I shouldn’t forget there are other introverts who have succeeded anyway. Just look at J.K Rowling and Richard Branson. If they can do it, so could I. Even though making a living out if is more then enough. I don’t want to be rich and famous.
It’s easier said than done. I don’t even know if I have the skills anymore. It’s been a year since I did anything web design related. Making up projects is not my style. I can’t make up things if I don’t have anything to go on. Then I have had so many other things to think about so I haven’t had the motivation to practice anything. I’m ‘On the dark of power in confusion’ and I can’t get much done because of it. Maybe things aren’t that complicated and it’s only in my head. I just have to find the red thread and maybe I find the solution one way or another.
I’m amazed how many great photographers there are in the world. All those captivating images make me feel a little jealous. It’s quite difficult for me to judge my own images. It feels like I’m not as good as I think I am. At least when it comes to making money off it. I thought I would have become a pro but then I realised I didn’t like taking photos that much. I still take them but not as much as before. At least not with my camera. If I took photos for a living, it would take all the fun out of it. It’s much more fun now that I don’t necessarily need to get better. There’s less pressure because I can photograph when I feel like it. A lot of people make it for a living so the competition is hard. Having photography as a hobby is much better because then you don’t need to impress anyone. It feels more relaxing to post them online too.
It’s looking more likely that I would start my own business. I’m studying about that at the moment. I thought about adding photography to my services. But it can cause problems since I don’t have driver’s license and I also don’t photograph portraits. But then again, you don’t really need those things to take photos. There’s a lot of different things to photograph. I was thinking more about taking event photos or photos of people’s workplaces. I don’t know if people want that service from me since my business would be about web design. But at least photography would make me stand out. I don’t even know why I even want to be in the web design business. It’s the same like with photography, the competition. But what else could I do? It’s rather that or a slave of well-fare.
Whatever I do, photography will always be part of me. You learn to look at the world in a different way. I have moments when I see something outside but I don’t have a camera with me. I don’t have a mobile with a good one and the same with my tablet. It’s a bummer but I don’t cry about it. Some situation you just can’t capture. You almost need to take your camera everywhere you go. All these smartphone cameras are only for online photos. I prefer a real camera anyway. I only have Instagram because of the tablet. It takes forever to post anything from it so I don’t do it very often. I can’t stand touch screens. I rather post photos from the computer. It’s easier and a little less irritating.
If any of you would like to see my photos (or maybe you already have) you can see them in the links.
Some of them can be the same but you get a general idea. I’ve had a comment from someone once that they could take photos like mine. Sure, go ahead. It’s so easy, some think. Besides, it’s the thought that counts. So what if anyone could have taken it. Photos don’t need to look perfect. There’s always someone who finds your photos captivating. They don’t even need to be focused. You only need to use your imagination and find the beauty in it. If people only see photos as one than they don’t get the idea of photography at all.